I feel drained, lately. I think it’s, in part, due to me trying to lower my caffeine intake, and part me worrying about too much. I know I shouldn’t. What’s going on in the world is largely outside of my control and that as bad as it is for a lot of people, I’ll likely be fine. While-male-privilege and all. It’s at work, too. Trying to keep face while inside I’m in turmoil over everything going on. Feeling helpless and broken. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I think, too, that I don’t care anymore. Let them have it all. Let them tear everything apart. Let them enslave, kill, deport and imprison everything they don’t like. I don’t care. I don’t have care to give anymore. I’m out. Someone else feel things for me. I don’t want to anymore.