A long, long time ago, in a company no so far away…
I used to be a “developer”. I use quotes because there is some interesting contention within the coding community as to the applicability of the “developer” moniker to those who work on the web. I was a PHP developer as well as a front-end developer for Florida Coastal School of Law. So… there’s that.
Anyway. I was really into coding, and doing all that fun stuff. I did it for 10 years, along with help desk, systems management and more. I enjoyed it, generally. I learned a lot and that knowledge has been helpful over the years. Over the years, though, I’ve found less and less enjoyment from even running the tools that I loved so much.
I’m not sure if it’s from a desire to have things “just work”, or a time-management thing, or just a changing of interests thing. I just don’t enjoy it. Don’t get me wrong, there are times where it’s fun to tinker with something and see it work. However, I don’t have the gumption to go any further. Often, it’s said that developers like to “scratch their own itches”, i.e. develop their own solutions to problems that irritate them. While I have no real shortage of issues, I have none that seem to chafe me in such a way that I find it more useful to develop some solution, rather than either alter my behavior, or fix it in a more straight-forward way.
This change is somewhat alarming to me, because I feel like I’m missing out on some cool endeavor. I was never a great programmer (my best days would probably pass as middling), but I felt a sort of kinship or connection to the practice. I still do, but I just don’t have the desire to pick it up anymore. I even tried lowering the bar for myself by trying out Python and PowerShell. Both were not met with great enthusiasm.
So, it’s with sadness that I remove my current tools, Emacs and VSCode from my machine. Purge Python and PowerShell Core 7 and wipe out any local repositories, along with Git, and live the life of the humble “power user”. It’s not really as bad as I make it out to be. I find I don’t worry so much about the smaller details and just use the computer as a tool. Maybe in another life I can take up programming as a full time profession. Until then, I’ll be over here playing games, publishing melodramatic crap to this blog and fixing people’s computer problems, like before.