There Once Was a Developer…

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A long, long time ago, in a company no so far away…

I used to be a “developer”. I use quotes because there is some interesting contention within the coding community as to the applicability of the “developer” moniker to those who work on the web. I was a PHP developer as well as a front-end developer for Florida Coastal School of Law. So… there’s that.

Anyway. I was really into coding, and doing all that fun stuff. I did it for 10 years, along with help desk, systems management and more. I enjoyed it, generally. I learned a lot and that knowledge has been helpful over the years. Over the years, though, I’ve found less and less enjoyment from even running the tools that I loved so much.

I’m not sure if it’s from a desire to have things “just work”, or a time-management thing, or just a changing of interests thing. I just don’t enjoy it. Don’t get me wrong, there are times where it’s fun to tinker with something and see it work. However, I don’t have the gumption to go any further. Often, it’s said that developers like to “scratch their own itches”, i.e. develop their own solutions to problems that irritate them. While I have no real shortage of issues, I have none that seem to chafe me in such a way that I find it more useful to develop some solution, rather than either alter my behavior, or fix it in a more straight-forward way.

This change is somewhat alarming to me, because I feel like I’m missing out on some cool endeavor. I was never a great programmer (my best days would probably pass as middling), but I felt a sort of kinship or connection to the practice. I still do, but I just don’t have the desire to pick it up anymore. I even tried lowering the bar for myself by trying out Python and PowerShell. Both were not met with great enthusiasm.

So, it’s with sadness that I remove my current tools, Emacs and VSCode from my machine. Purge Python and PowerShell Core 7 and wipe out any local repositories, along with Git, and live the life of the humble “power user”. It’s not really as bad as I make it out to be. I find I don’t worry so much about the smaller details and just use the computer as a tool. Maybe in another life I can take up programming as a full time profession. Until then, I’ll be over here playing games, publishing melodramatic crap to this blog and fixing people’s computer problems, like before.

By Nathan DeGruchy

IT Support extraordinaire. FOSS lover and proud Husband and Father.