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In which I talk about my ability to be alone in a crowd of people I “know”

Holiday parties are difficult for me. I enjoy the season and the sentiment. The problem is that many holiday parties are with people I don’t really know. This means I’m stuck trying to make small talk or glom onto a conversation that I know something about. Usually I just end up sitting alone or “holding a table” for people.

I know this is probably some sort of social anxiety. It sucks, though. I see people around me having fun, conversing and really enjoying it. All the while I can’t stop thinking about how long I am obligated to stay and what I’d rather be doing (like writing this post. Which is what I’m doing instead of partying).

The fact that we have such a large and on-the-clock party should have me thankful for working at such a wonderful company. I am, truly. I don’t think I’ve ever worked anywhere better than here. The problem is me. I am not a people person. Giant parties drain my already limited interaction fuel instantly.

I should really do myself a favor and skip out in the future. I am not required to be here and honesty it just puts me on edge.

What do you think about company Christmas parties?

By Nathan

Hello! My name is Nathan and I'm a technologist living and working in the south east. I love breaking crap and fixing it. I tend to break more than I fix. When I'm not breaking and fixing stuff, I'm playing games with my son or going to Disney with my family. I strongly support open source software, hardware and greater transparency in government.